I am not quite sure what it was that I experienced on this night, but I know one thing - It felt mighty real, and it has changed my life and my outlook on the minds capabilities and mysteries.
At a concert in a busy bar/nightclub. No alcohol yet. Only been here for 20 minutes. Great music, great friends, great atmosphere. Lights flashing, flashing. Music flashing, fading.
I found it really odd when the music faded out. I could see the band playing but nothing was coming out. I tried to tell my friends that something was wrong, but I couldn't hear myself talk. It was like a silent movie. I started to feel very claustrophobic and decided to head out for some fresh air.
I began to push through the crowd, heading for the exit. By this time my vision had started fading also. Darkness crept in from the sides and began to take more and more light from me.
That's when it happened. I felt a strange shift. A disconnection if you wish to call it that, yet at the same time a complete connection. My vision cleared, and I watched myself pushing through the crowd from behind. I started to lose track of myself in the crowd and immediately began to float towards the ceiling to get a better perspective.
I watched as my body began to fall to the floor, my arms grasping desperately to people nearby to stop me from falling to the floor. It was of no use. I fell to the floor, and lay there on my left hand side in a fetal position. People began to make a circle around me, as the band continued to play.
I immediately noticed someone pushing through the crowd toward me. It was a security guard. He straightened me up and took hold of my arms in order to drag me out of there. I could see him trying to talk to me. Then I felt the shift once again.
With a load tearing noise, my vision began to blur, and my hearing began to return. The security guard had me by the arms and was dragging me across the dancefloor toward the front door. He kept on asking me what drugs I had been taking and I tried to tell him that I've never taken drugs in my life. My words were slurred - I am sure that he could not understand me.
I found myself outside, sitting on the cold, wet concrete. It was raining and I smelt badly like bourbon and cigarette smoke. I started to remember what happened and immediately checked my left side. In shock and confusion I found the source of the smell - my left side was covered in ashes and wet alcohol, and little bits of glass from where I saw myself lying on the dance floor.
I had never experienced, or heard of anything like this in my life. I thought that I must have been close to death or something. All I can remember however is how calm I felt, how peaceful it was while looking down on me. It's a feeling I will never forget.
I stood in the hard, cold rain for about 10 minutes to try and shake off anything that was not reality. Everything was still as clear as day. Such confusion and awe.
What was that?
